I've been really sick with pnumonia, plurisy, and nodules in my lungs for 4 weeks!  At one time my fever was 105 degrees.  I'm feeling better, but they can still hear the pnumonia and the plurisy really hurts!  I'm very weak as expected with how sick I was.  My port-a-cath got infected from the pnumonia so they had to take it out.  They will put another (my 4th) one in when everything clears up.  I had to have IV antibiotics when I left the hospital.  So I would have to go up to the hospital for 7 days to receive them.  Since my veins are so bad, they couldn't get an IV started, so I got shots--2 at a time.  They hurt, but it's better than getting poked 12 times to get a vein that doesn't even last 8 hours (the truth)!

Hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving!

My Love to All~
Karlene

 I have had some trouble with my J-Tube (the feeding tube in my stomach). It got clogged and I wasn't able to do my tube feedings that night.  I was dehydrated and terribly weak.  Thank goodness my GI doc took me in and replaced my tube with a new one.  Just pulled that one out and stuck a new one in.  Ouch!!!!  About a week ago I got so dehydrated I went out of my mind and kept passing out. I don't remember my friend coming to pick me up (literally pick me up) and take me to the hospital.  I just remember the sensation of not being able to hold myself up.  But I don't remember arriving at the ER or being there or anything...until after a liter of fluid was pumped in me.  Then my eyes flew open to a nurse trying to put an IV in.  I shouted at her "I have a port!!!!  I don't need another stick...that's why I have a port."  Duh!  Anyway they said I was so dehydrated and depleated, I could have gone into a coma.  People ask, "why do you let yourself get so dehydrated."  It's because the tube feedings I get causes incredibly watery diarrhea 15-20 times a day. Gross I know.  It's misery!  My tube is in my small intestine, not my stomach (which is not working right now), so the diarrhea is going to happen.  I try to flush as much water in my tube as possible.  Or the dehydration will truly kill me. 

Guess I had more to write then I thought.

Thank you all for your wonderful support, thoughts, and prayers!  You and my family keep me going!

Love to you all!
Karlene

Actually I'm in more pain that's making me feel bummbed.  My PEG tube is killing me.  I have to walk bent over.
I want to thank everyone for your kind, sweet and supportive replies.  I read and reply to each one.  I owe that to you. 
I wish evey day that I could turn back 25 years and never started this stupid diet.  Many people diet then stop.  My personality combined with the restricting, was a recipe for disaster.  I was a perfectionist, people-pleaser, one to never "rock the boat".  I wanted to be goog in everything I did so I could please everyone, especially my parents.  When I started spirialing down and hit the double digits. it was like getting high.  I was hooked and quickly became obsessed.  I now weigh less than 80 lbs. but I'm not practicing my ED because of my medical problems. My feeding tube is in my sm. intestine bc me stomach can't handle food.  I just run my feedings for 14 hours a night.

Well, I guess I better try to sleep....if my pain lets me.

My love to all------- 
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I know I just updated yesterday, but I'm bored and trying to distract myself from the pain.  My collapsed lung is quite painful today.  I get another xray done on Thursday.  I'm also trying to fight off a bit of depression.  I think most of it is because all of my medical problems and mounting medical bills.  I'm in the hospital once or twice a month, see my doc once a week, see my psychiatrist once a month, plus I have to do tube feedings 14 hours a night, so I go through my feeding formula quite quickly, AND I have to rent the machine and IV pole.  I'm in pain so much of the time.  I take Hydrocodone, but my doc is weaning me off of it.  I don't think he realizes the overall pain I have every single day.

Take care everyone~love you all!

Hello all~~I'm sorry I have not posted in a while. Things have been a little chaotic.  I have had 3 different port-a-caths in my chest (for easy access for an IV since I go into the hospital so often.  They keep getting infected and making me rather sick (severe anemia, blood transfusions, pneumonia,etc).  I also have recently gotten a feeding tube in my stomach.  It's actually called a J-Tube because it goes in my small intestine (what little I have of it).  I get so easily dehydrated and my BP goes so low and heart rate of 150, I often faint.  I recently fainted and fell smack down on my tailbone.  Ouch!!  This last port they put in nicked my lung so now I have a painful partially collapsed lung.

I hope everyone is doing well.  Remember NEVER give up.  Please don't end up like me.  Eating disorders can and WILL destroy your life....and even end it!  My illness has taken so much from me.  I don't go very many places (except for doctors or to hospitals).  I don't even get to see my precious nieces and nephews very often...and most of them live just a few miles from me.

Please take care of yourself and best wishes to you all.
God Bless,
Karlene