((((((Karlene)))))

I am typing this through tears. Karlene, my heart is breaking for you.

Please know we are all thinking of you constantly and sending positive, healing thoughts your way.

Wishing you peace and sending you love, sweetie.

Hugs,
Medusa

I cry as I type. Karlene, my heart bleeds for you. I will not give up hope on you. I refuse. I pray and send my love by the truck loads. Please sweetheart - Reach to God, for He can deliver you from this awful disease. I love you beyond words. My heart breaks and for Thanksgiving, I will thank the Lord for another day that you are with us all. God Bless you, Karlene and your family. My thoughts are with you.

(((Karlene)))

I hope you were able to get lots of rest these past few days.

You mentioned in your post that you were at home. Have you been discharged from hospital? How are you feeling, hon?

Thinking of you and sending you love...

I would gladly give up 10 years of my own life just so you could have 10 years of freedom from this disease. Just so you know, that's how much I love you.

I am glad you can feel it Karlene, because I do love you and I feel your pain each and every day. I will keep being here, praying, that maybe, my love can make a difference. It may not be a lot, but Its all I have. I just wish I could make you see how beautiful of a person you are through my eyes and how I would give anything...ANYTHING, to see you beat this. If I was near by, I would come and wrap my arms around you and give you all of the support in the world.

I hope today is a better day for you. Reach Karlene. Reach. You have a fighting chance, you can. All you have to do is ask God to show you the path to walk on.

Until then, I am with you in spirit. Much love, Always!

You haven't disappointed ANYONE, Karlene. Do you hear me?? You are a blessing, and a BLESSING can NEVER, EVER be a disappointment! Feel love, not guilt. You are an AMAZING person! I just wish I can make you see that, and maybe, by the Grace of God, I can. There is still time and I truly believe in miracles. YOU should also:)

oh hi sweetie i'm so glad to see you're still here, battling on! oh i hope that doesnt sound horrible or scarey- but i havent been on here for ages and i cautiously clicked on your profile kind of expecting not to see any updated entries- i'm afraid i feared for your welfare- you know what i mean- i'm sorry if this upsets you i dont intend to. i am just so glad to see you're still up to posting. please keep battling. i have faith in you to get better. i hope you do. please dont give up. STAY STRONG YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON INSIDE!!! x x x x

Like someone else said you have not disapointed anyone. I so wish your suffering could stop. I too had gotten to such low weights although you look taller than me and I know how its so out of control. I did see what I looked like for real once and only once and I was shocked. I have gained some weight, been through the hospitalizations and as of now consider myself recovered. I'm older and started this horrible thing in my pre teen years. I want you to get better, I am glad you are in the hospital and are excepting their help. This is an extreme step. You are owed congratulations for that. (((((())))))hugs Take care, Happy Holidays, will be checking back to see how you are doing.

Hey

I have read a bit of your story & my heart really goes out to you. You are a very special lady & the hope is not yet gone. I am praying for you; that you grow stronger with each day & that you hold on to the hope that God has you in His hands!

xx

You made me smile with your message, thank you! Despite what you are going through you still have tremendous gratitude & love for others. It really warms my heart! You are awesome!! God bless YOU too. And I know He will. xx

karlene. i just read your post, and its heartbreaking to see you like this. i prayed to god that he'll fill you with serenity and empower you with strength to fight anorexia. karlene, we're all behind you.

:)

you can do it :) get well!! get well!!

i'll be 21 at the end of october, and the beginning of november will mark my 10 year anniversary with anorexia. every time i try to imagine life completely recovered, it sickens me. eating like a 'normal' person... potentially becoming obese. it disgusts me. but at the same time, the thought of happiness is so appealing. i just have so much doubt that i can successfully recover. though my case doesn't hold a candle to yours, your story has inspired me to at least give recovery a fighting chance. ya know, we hear stories of anorexia taking lives here and there, but it never really seemed believable to me until now. i've read your entire journal today, thanks to the medusa blog... and i can't even put in words how it has affected me. i really do hope they can sustain you as long as possible. i don't believe in any god, but if i did i would pray for you. i guess the only thing we can trust or depend on is the fact that everything happens for a reason. everything happens for the best. i have a feeling you've saved many lives. potentially mine. like i mentioned, i've never really, truly wanted to recover... until today. it's so frightening.
i also wanted to tell you that i understand the hospital thing. probably not quite the same way you do... but i spent close to a month in a room, not being able to walk or digest food. i had a PIC line in the middle of my right arm (to feed me nutrients), and an NG tube. they took the NG tube out too soon, and i woke up in a puddle of vomit from bile. they had to put the NG tube back into my nose, and ended up tearing my throat in the process. it took three tries by three different nurses to put it back in... the pain was extreme. you are so strong. it's just beyond me.

sorry for the novel. :/ i really hope you are gaining some sort of strength by now.
i guess all i really wanted to say, in short, is thank you.
we need reality.
<3 best wishes,
Victoria.

Karlene-
I have read bits and pieces of your blog and I feel horrible. I want you to know I am keeping you in my prayers!!!!! I have faith that you will conquer this disease. Though I do not know you I believe you are a strong enough lady to overcome this.
'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'
F.R.O.G.
Forever Rely On God.
Wishing you the BEST WISHES and outcome,
Heather L.

Ps. I found this story in my inbox... it reminded me of you.

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway.. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the King's' wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand!

Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.